That's the only way to describe my reaction to yesterday's defeat at Watford. I didn't feel able to write anything yesterday. Needless to say, we are now bottom of the form table.
I didn't expect to win at Watford after the events of last week, but what was evident was that the players were completely demoralised. Earlier in the season we had a rock hard defence, but Bikey and Talal Ben Haim both had poor games. Ben Haim has, of course, been associated with rumoured moves to Israeli clubs and to Celtic.
The last 5-0 defeat was at West Ham on Boxing Day in the Premier League. According to Matt Wright in the last Voice of the Valley Curbs couldn't be stopped writing about it in the programme for months afterwards, so humiliated did he feel.
'Luzon: I'm no Valley Fall Guy is the headline in today's Football League Paper. He says, 'In professional football you must get results and if you don't have the ability and the quality to bring the result, you must go home. Football is my life, it's my passion and I will do everything I can to bring a lot of passion to create a result. I hope that when every game has finished, the fans know that Charlton have worked 100 per cent and given everything.'
Unfortunately, it may need a bit more than passion but also some strengthening of the squad from outside the network. Hopefully, Roland will have realised this while watching the live stream in his bunker.
Fans are understandably demoralised and, unfortunately, divided. We have had some dark days at Charlton, but all we can do is try and rally round.